Re-writing Company of Wolves by LadyWhisp, literature
Literature
Re-writing Company of Wolves
It is midwinter and the world twists on the axis of change. It spins into the new year and hurls sickeningly back into the old, and my daughter becomes a woman. She is fruit become ripe, the blush of sweetness creeps into her cheeks, skin unbroken, and I can only watch and wait for wasps. The child, ready to be made woman, tabula rasa. She is a shell delicately, barely whole. I feel a deep visceral wrench at the looks of her fathers friends, but what they know is simple, animal.
My daughter goes to visit her grandmother with food, because it is an old, cold year, and if you want to live, you teach your children to care for the old, col
The Dangers of Convenience by LadyWhisp, literature
Literature
The Dangers of Convenience
Convenience in Tears
Im nothing without you.
What?
Theyre quiet words, considered. He has a tone of voice that allows no argument, makes me regret my incredulous question.
Its true. Everything I am, all the things I have done
Its an unusual goodbye. An unacknowledged ending, but all the same, I have bitten my tongue to stop myself from trying to change things. I know this course, I know this road. It is the path we have always been following, and suddenly I look up and I know it better than my own heart. Far better, it seems, than my own heart. I am soaked to the bone by t
The Peace Which Passeth All Understanding
This, I cant name.
Warmth in my heart,
Cool, in my mind.
Have you lost your mind?
No, but becalmed it, liquid.
This, I cant know
All the crowds, machines, cold patter
Cannot make it speak, nor,
By means of introduction,
Imply a name.
It does not change
Nor change that around it.
It, like me, like the foul air
And the wet land,
Simply is.
There is nothing I have really saved
Of the first you.
Photographs of groups
With your face, accidentally,
Drifts of poetry
A story or two.
Looking back, now I can,
I should have saved your skin,
Or your hair.
A dirty chuckle, or
A smile, would have done.
The second you loves me
And knows me well
But of the first you, only photos
In which you never face me
Or smile.
In some crazy
Blaring bright-light dawn
A man stood up
Naked and fat and swollen
And shouted
(As best he could,
Fat heavy over his lungs)
Shouted I can sell this!
And now
Everything can be bought.
Voice of the Air when it Snows by LadyWhisp, literature
Literature
Voice of the Air when it Snows
There is no feeling like this
Gorgeous burning-cold sweet caress
No one touches me like this
Lilts through my being with such affection.
Rain is unrelenting, undisturbing.
Wind?
I am wind, wind is my dance.
Hail is bullets through me
Of me
But snow
It is myself condensed
It is my beauty
It is when people stop
Stop.
And gaze into me.
For when else do they see
My shape, my shimmering twists,
See a thousand miles of dimensions,
Of space?
I have been forever,
Been fire, the most terrible birth.
Been poison,
Been pure.
I would have it snow
Until it reached the stars.
Would they have been sons,
These lost, never-become children of mine?
Maybe they would have had
Black hair
Blue eyes
Devils inside.
I can learn, and I can teach,
But I cannot sit in lavender
With raven-silken angels
Flying troubles at my feet.
I am not in your arms
Kiss by kiss, the chances of passion
Sucker away from my skin.
I can stand and speak freedom
I am sterile until I have.
There is no rainbow above me,
I flush childless.
Words shine in my mouth like baubles
But my arms are empty.
There are no words bloody enough for that.
I slick beer round my mouth
Sticky on my pursed lips on such an unholy afternoon
My words are hammers hefted by my tongue
They shatter the meanings
I want to slip home like glass daggers
To change you from within.
I want to believe there is no language
to convey the shape of my soul
No chart to find where it might sit flush with yours
It's been a long time since I updated here...
I'm about to start my third year of my degree, facing a dissertation alongside some fiction writing.
I'm finding writing very hard recently, really very difficult, and I'm struggling to feel absorbed in what I write, but I think a lot of that has to do with a general impression of academic inferiority - the better my grades get, the more aware I am of how little I know.
Still, I love to write, and create ideas, and chisel a little closer to a truth.
I simply cannot curb my excitement!
I've found the uni I want to go to, they accepted me and stuff, and I visited on wednesday.
They've just got a 5.2 million pound grant to build a centre of excellence, which includes a gallery, theatre and publishing house!!!!!
And the creative writing faculty are hiring a writer-in-residence, and it's going to be a children's writer, and there's a project during the course involving writing for kids.
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I'm such an idiot - I deleted the icon that was dodgy, before taking notice of the name of the guy who wanted to see when I made it look better. damn.
I'm so blonde sometimes :(.
In other news, so is Devart...my D.O.B is 23rd/09/1985, but it says I'm 18...I haven't been 18 since Thursday. tuh.